He was there, standing on the empty, green field. I was sitting on a tree. A cherry tree. The clouds drift pass like a magical wings carrying them so far ahead. I was just there, watching the clouds and the blue sky darken. I looked at the field beyond me. He was stil there looking ahead of him. I wonder what’s he looking at. He turned around and we both saw each others eyes.
Fierce, raging amber eyes. They were like powerful flames, their blazes, attempting to catch my cool emerald eye on fire. I looked away-
“OUCH!” Something hit my head, I caught it in my head and opened my eyes. It was my alarm clock. So, it was just a dream, after all.
An advice for you, try not to fall in love with a guy who’s totally hot, and smart and popular, and it’s very hard to find him alone, the results, I think it’ll be disastrous. I’ll probably just be another stupid girl who has a crush on him. That’s what he’ll think. He must have had many girls like him, in his old school and where he lived before. He was just so calm and casual. You would think he is just like a yoga teacher, maybe he secretly is…
I was sitting on a short wall, near the entrance of my school, working on my Spanish homework. We still have 15 minutes left till the bell rings. Today is Friday, Tomoyo still hasn’t come yet. I wonder where she is. I was nearly done on my Spanish homework…
I finished writing down the answer on the last question I have to do. I put the paper in my black binder, and put the black binder in my bag. I decided to do some observation around me.
If you didn’t get what I mean, I am looking for Tomoyo, so we can get to class together. And if Tomoyo’s not there, I can always search for Syaoran, and stare at him.
A couple of people are sitting on the opposite short wall beside me, Mei Lin, I think he is Syaoran’s cousin, from what I have heard. She was in a cute embrace with her boyfriend, Ryu, and talking in soft voices.
I think Mei Lin is very pretty. She has a silky long raven black hair. Accompanying her fair smooth complexion, were her lovely ruby eyes. Her body figure is good too. Mei Lin would have been the popular girl also, boys would surround her if but she has a boyfriend and her attitude. Don’t get me wrong, she is nice to everybody, even me, but when the Anna and the girls asked to join her group. She politely said no, Anna enraged by this, and being the bitchy girl she is, now hates her and would from time to time pick on her.
10 minutes to go, its 7: 20 now, where is Tomoyo?
There were the people who wear black and love heavy metal hanging out on the stone concrete benches, listening to each other’s iPODs. Then there are the desperate wannabes. For God’s sake. Look at Chimiko Aretsuka.
Chimiko is a wannabe. She wants to hang out with the popular girls of course. So she completely transformed herself, into what they were wearing, how they wear their hair. Heavens, she even dyed her lush auburn hair into a fake blonde yellow. And doesn’t she realize the clothes she wear, so don’t fit her. Okay, I’m being nice and I won’t call her fat, but she isn’t thin and she is very well rounded. She does not realize that does miniskirts and boob tubes are only for thin skinny girls, and not for girls who are a bit large on her legs and bottoms.
I shook my head, raised my knee up to tie my dirty black converse. And looked at my watch.
7:30. Where is she?
I jumped off the short wall, pulled my bag along with me, heading off to science.
When I arrived there, I saw Anna and her cronies already there, and then I saw somebody. Now I know where Tomoyo has been. She’s been with them all this time!
I sat on a booth, and waiting for the teacher to come. Tomoyo still didn’t notice me, she was talking and laughing with them.
And when the bell rang! She went and sat next to THEM! She’s supposed to sit here, next to me, where we always sit.
A voice shook me out of my thoughts.
“Hey, can I sit here?”
I turned, and I admit that half of me was hoping that it was Syaoran.
But it wasn’t.
I nodded. Mei Lin gently put her bag on the high lab chairs and started pulling her science books out. I just sat there in silence.
The teacher came, and we began our lesson. But most of the time, I kept trying to catch Tomoyo’s eye. But she didn’t see me.
Then it dawned on me. Either she really was so happy that Anna’s finally noticed her that she didn’t see me, or she is purposely avoiding me.
The lesson ended. Anna and the girls left saying to Tomoyo, “we’ll see you later.”
I went out the door and waited till she came out. When she exited the door, finally she noticed me.
“Hey Tomoyo.” I greeted, too brightly though.
“Hey.” She said.
I could see on her eyes, there was something wrong, she wasn’t telling me. She was either guilty or confused, or both.
“Where were you? I was looking all over for you, I waited for you on the wall entrance, this morning, and you were not there-“ I started explaining.
She interrupted me though, her voice was different.
“Yeah, I know I was with them.”
“ Yeah, so how was the date with Eriol?” I asked, knowing that she wasn’t going to say another word.
“Great.”
“Good…”
“Sakura?” Tomoyo mumbled.
‘ Yeah?” I said.
Her voice was uncertain now.
“ I…I’m gonna have lunch with Anna and Nicole today.”
“Yeah…sure, then, I’ll see you at the lunch table tomorrow.” I smiled at Tomoyo.
‘Sakura?”
“What?” I was very happy for Tomoyo she finally has friends, other than me. And she has a boyfriend. This is the life that she wanted. And she got it!
“ Don’t you get it?’ Tomoyo said, her voice rising.
“ No? What do you mean? Yeah I’m happy for you, you’ll get to know Anna today, and then when you know her, you can probably invite me and tell her that I’m not a freak, and, yeah Tomoyo, and then you’re gonna have lunch with me tomorrow and we can work on our chemistry and-“
“Sakura!” She stopped me.
“Don’t you get it?” She repeated to me again.
“I’m having lunch with them, every day from now on.” She said.
“ Okay, Tomoyo, that’ll be okay, but remember we have our Saturday sleepover session, remember and we have to work together for the History project.”
“Sakura. I’m not your partner in history anymore. I’m with Nicole. And I can’t come to your house this Saturday, we’re having a maths cramming test at Maya’s house, and we’re sleeping over.”
I felt like I was hit by thousand bricks. Do you know how much that hurt me? WE are planning this, WE are doing that….
“I just want to tell that, from now on, I’ll be with them. I’m gonna do everything with them. Everything.” She concluded.
Before turning around, with her pink bag on her shoulders, bouncing along with her hair as she walked away…
From me.
My eyes welled up. My throat suddenly had a humongous lump. I had nowhere else to go.. Except.
I ran, ran as fast as my legs could carry me.
When I entered the bathroom, I was really glad to find it empty. I went in ot an empty cubicle , locked the door, dumped my bag on the floor, sat on the toilet seat. And cried.
How could she leave me? One cheerleading session. One party. And Now she left me. Left me… The words echoed through me like a bell.
I’m all alone, as another tear slide down on my pink and wet cheeks.
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