Chameleon - Chapter Seventeen

I could feel the sun’s ray that refracted through the window and into my eyelids. It was already morning. I opened my swollen and red eyes and rubbed them gently. I’m trying to forget about what happened last night, but I just couldn’t. How am I to see him again? I’ve lost my big chance.

Today we are going back to Japan, as much as I love Bahamas, there is no place to call home other than my home, which is in Tomoeda. I miss everybody there so much. A thought run through me and sent shudders down my spine. Euw, I wonder what Yukito and Touya are doing, now that I’m not there, ahem, there could be some bed-hopping going on, with Dad working busy nights and all.

Oh well, as long as I don’t find some dirty boxers on my bed I’m all happy.

But how can I feel happy? I lost Syaoran. Even as a friend probably, why did I have to be so stupid and kiss him? He freaked out so bad I’m sure.

And I need somebody to talk to…

The teacher already told us to start packing yesterday, I was nearly done with mine.

I quickly took a shower, and changed into a white t shirt, and beige ¾ pants.

I looked in the mirror.

Good. At least my swollen eyes are reduced.

It wouldn’t look like I have cried that much.

I neatly combed my hair and I closed the cabin door behind me and I left.

I was hoping I wouldn’t meet Syaoran.

I don’t see him in sight anywhere so far.

I walked slowly, breathing in the salty humid sea air.

There she is.

Mei Lin like his cousin, was very involved in the Martial Arts. She trains every single day and let me tell you the day she wrestled me when I refused to be made-over by the girls, I had a very sore back since then.

There she was meditating right in front of her cabin and facing the forest.

I ran to her.

When she saw my face, she quickly came and hugged me, I didn’t realize tears were already streaming until she held me in her arms.

“ What happened Sakura? Did that bitch Anna hurt you again? If she did I swear I’m gonna take my high heels and shove it up her ass --”

“ It’s not.” I said, my voice croaky from all the tears.

“ It’s about Li.” I continued, I coughed when I said the name.

“ Yeah what did he do?” She asked worriedly.

“ Hey Sakura!” Tomoyo came hurriedly, and put me in her arms as well. Both she and Mei Lin made me sit between them on the steps of their cabin.

“ What happened?” Tomoyo asked her face full of concern.

“ He didn’t do anything. I did!” I bawled.

“ Tomoyo she’s talking about Li.” Mei Lin declared, seeing Tomoyo’s confused face.

“ Oh. What did you do Sakura?” Tomoyo said.

“ Well, last night, I couldn’t sleep so I went for a swim. It turns out Syaoran was there as well. So we talked, and I don’t know, I went all crazy and irrational and didn’t think of the consequences. Well, I hoped the consequence would be good.” I started to explain, my throat felt it had a huge lump.

“ I…”

“ I kissed him.” I said it so fast, then I cried again.

“ What? I couldn’t hear you. Ikessim? Ikissim…” Tomoyo was confused.

Then her face changed.

She looked at me by surprise and excitement.

“ You didn’t!” She exclaimed.

“ I did.” I cried.

“ So what’s wrong?” Tomoyo asked.

“ The consequence wasn’t good, in fact it was the worst moment I ever had to face him in my life.” I said.

“ He didn’t respond, he was shocked, my thoughts snapped out of it and became rational when my lips were on his. I let go and I ran away and I cried all night.” I finished the story.

“ We can tell.” Mei Lin replied.

“ Oh. Sakura come on, be strong, I’m sure it was already planned to happen, now you have to accept it, you have to stop crying over your mistake, there’s nothing you can do to make it not happen. Instead think about what are you doing to do now.” Mei Lin advised.

Maybe she’s right. But what do I do?

“ AAAARGH!” I groaned loudly.

“ Calm down, now Sakura, here take this.” Tomoyo took my hand and placed a book on it.

“ Syaoran left his book last night, on the camp table, Ms. Mizuki found it, and told me to give it to him. But I think you should.” Tomoyo said.

“ I can’t see him anymore!” I wailed.

“ Shut up Sakura! You’ll be fine. It’s not a big deal. He doesn’t like you so what? There’ll be others I’m sure.” Mei Lin rubbed my back.

“ Come on, let’s go to breakfast.” She grabbed my hand and lifted me up from the steps.

I dreaded that. Who knows what amber penetrating eyes I’m going to see and will try to avoid when I go there.

Okay, I’ve made up my mind while handing him the book I am going to apologize to him. Yes, that seems like a reasonable plan.

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A/N: This is normal point of view I think it will be much more clearer to understand for this next part of the chapter. Fast forward to evening of the last day, Sakura will be leaving tomorrow.

Li was sitting in his room, packing. He was gathering shirts and shorts and organizing them in clean and dirty piles.

Suddenly the door open, Li looked. It was Nicole.

She closed the cabin door behind her.

“ Hey.” She said.

“ Hi.” Li replied. He went to pack. “ What do you want?”

“ Nothing, can’t I hang out here?” She said too sweetly.

“ Yeah whatever.” He replied.

She approached him.

“ Oh Li.” She said seductively.

Li just turned around and gave her a raised eyebrow.

She took off her yellow top revealing her bra.

“ What the fuck are you doing Nicole?” Li said.

“ Li I want you so bad.” She came closer.

She pushed him on the bed.

“ Nicole get your hands of me. Fuck off.” Li yelled.

“ You know you want me.” Nicole purred.

Just as he was about to push her away.

The door opened.

To reveal a shocked Sakura.

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My hands were numb, I wasn’t aware I already had dropped the book when I saw the two of them.

Nicole was on top of Syaoran in her bra. On the bed.

What else could that possibly mean?

I had to say something.

Syaoran was just staring at me with a face that was obviously shocked.

“ I am sorry.” I said quickly and shut the door behind them.

Oh my God! I’m crying now. I can’t believe it. This is shocking. How could I thought I had a chance? Nicole was obviously faster than me, and Syaoran too loves Nicole now from the looks of it.

He was just shocked because I disturbed their happy moment.

I ran as hard as I could to find Eriol first and ran into his arms.

“ Oh Eriol.” I sobbed.

“ Sakura are you okay?” He said shocked.

“ I can’t see him anymore. He was with Nicole on the bed. Nicole with her bra on.” I sniffed.

“ Li, that jackass. Wait here.” Eriol said angrily. He left me crying there on the beach.

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Eriol was mad now. How could Syaoran just leave everything like that? He was this close to bringing them together then that bitch Nicole had to ruin everything. He was pissed, he was gonna give this guy a shouting to but he didn’t when he heard angry voices from the cabin.

“ Nicole get out now.” Eriol heard Li said.

“ But honey. Sakura just interrupted us.” Nicole’s snotty chirp was heard.

“ US? There is no US? We were never together. How could you just jump on me like that? You think you’re so hot you can get anyone? You think you’ll just get me by showing your fat ass to me? You’re so ugh…just get out now.” Syaoran yelled in disgust.

“ You asshole! My ass is not fat!” Nicole shrieked.

The door swung open violently and out came Nicole.

Eriol stepped in to find a frustrated Li.

“ Li.” Eriol started.

“ I’m screwed.” Li replied in a moan.

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I have decided to never ever face or speak to Li again. I will probably never like a guy again after my heart was broken. No scratch that, after my heart became cold and frozen because of sadness, it was taken on top of a tall building, and my heart dropped and fell to the cold hard ground and smashed into pieces when I saw he and Nicole together.

I am overreacting. Li doesn’t even care. We aren’t even together, so why should he care?

My love life is ruined. Forever. No guy shall ever like me.

Mei Lin told me to forget him.

Tomoyo said maybe it was a misunderstanding.

Yeah right, that was not a misunderstanding. If Li didn’t like her he could have told her so. But he didn’t, he let her took off her top and let her go on top of him.

More tears came on my eyes.

“ Aww, Sakura, come here.” Yamazaki put his arms around me.

I cried more.

I really appreciated that everybody was being sweeter than ever. Eriol said he talked to Li. That was all he said. And now he’s just hanging out with Tomoyo. I’m confused. Yamazaki and Ryu were being nicer too, comforting me as well as Naoko, Rika, Chiharu and Chimiko.

“ Sakura, come on, let’s get all your bags and suitcases from the room okay?” Chimiko gently took my hand and both of us went to our cabin.

“ I don’t know everything Sakura. But I’m sorry if the guy you like doesn’t like you back. It’s Li right?” Chimiko asked.

I nodded.

Chimiko has a surprisingly strong arms so she helped me carry my bag towards the assembly point where the other bags are ready to go on the bus.

They were already starting to load everything on the bus. I put my bag and Chimiko put my suitcase in the pile and went inside the bus.

Tomoyo already saved a seat for me. I sat down.

“ Are you okay honey?” Tomoyo asked gently.

“ Better but not recovered.” I replied.

“ Sakura. When we get back we’re gonna paaaarty okay?” Mei Lin yelled, she was a seat in front of us with Naoko.

I nodded and for the first time I smiled since I found Li and Nicole together.

I had to give up on him. I must move on with life and be happy for him and Nicole. No matter how much I love him, and how much I hate Nicole, I just have to conceal my feelings around him. I also had to apologize to him for kissing him.

Li, if you could only see I love you.