I did not say anything. I could not say anything. I could still feel his grip on mine, the anger in his eyes. When he saw that I slapped Anna in the face. I woke up sweating on my bed. My pillow was wet from my sweat and tears from the violent dream. It had been a week since that event happened. I still couldn’t forget about it.
Somehow, a part of me felt it was my fault. But also Anna started it, I just had enough of her and decided to fight back. So why was I feeling guilty for hitting somebody? I think it’s because I’m the nice person, not to boast or anything. I bet Anna is feeding Syaoran lies and cries in his arm, and Syaoran, like all men, clueless, swallowed up her lies.
We’ll never be friends now. A normal girl would have hated him by then, but I couldn’t because, I thought it was just a bad timing. I mean, I would get mad too if I see this random person slapping my friend or boyfriend, I would outburst just like Syaoran had, and not listen to anything.
I sympathize myself, I’m so pathetic and so…forgiving?
“ Class, yesterday I went to the embassy, to collect all your visas, so I have all yours and going to give you the visa two days before we leave. Because if I give you now, I have a feeling some of you are going to lose it. Please inform your parents that everything is all done, I have all your passports and permission sheets, the only thing you all need to do this week is start packing and make sure you have everything in to packing list I gave you. That is all. Class dismissed!.” Kaho Mizuki, Sakura’s homeroom teacher, dismissed the class.
I quickly packed all my belongings, carried my bag, put my hoodie on and rushed out of the class before anyone else. I have been avoiding Mei Lin and the others for a week now. I just couldn’t bring myself to face them. They are mad at me I think.
I opened my locker, nothing. Ever since I fought back with Anna, she kind of back off and stopped bugging me, still shocked I guess. So for a week, I have been blessed to find nothing that isn’t mine in my locker. No banana peels, toilet paper or nasty things.
I was done with putting the books I don’t need in my locker, and putting other books I need in my bag. So I headed to the canteen to get some food, I am starving.
“ Can I have…a chocolate croissant and orange juice please?” I asked the canteen lady, she nodded and got me my food. I handed her the money and left the canteen. I went to the cherry blossom tree that was near the school entrance. I started munching on my chocolate croissant.
“ You’re sitting in my spot” A voice nearly shook me out of the tree.
I turned around, my heart broke, it was Syaoran. He’s still mad at me for beating the shit out of his girlfriend. I couldn’t help thinking that she deserved it though.
“ Fuck off.” I said.
“ Sakura….why are you so pissed?” He said, surprisingly innocent. I thought he was gonna avenge his beloved by beating the hell out of me.
Okay, just because I am madly in love with the guy, does not mean I am not mad at him, for what happened. It hurt you know, when he gripped my hand. Come on, I do have some dignity.
“ Because you’re so freaking blind.” I replied.
“ oh…that.” He said.
“ Sakura, I came here to tell you, that I’m sorry I hurt you.” He said.
Oh my god, finally he realized that I did not start the fight.
“ But still… it does not give you the right to hit Anna. What did she do to you?” He said.
Damn it, I was so wrong. This guy is as clueless like a kid in a topless bar.
“ I proved my point.” I said coldly. “ You’re so blind and clueless, ironic, considering you’re very smart. But you’re such an ass to notice things around you.”
“ Huh?” He said blankly. “ Then what happened?”
“ I don’t know Syaoran, maybe you should ask somebody else, it would be smarter if you did not ask your girlfriend because she will not tell the truth.” I hissed. Then I jumped off the tree, landed coolly, hey I am quite flexible, and ran off.
Lunch came, and I decided to sit near the tree and enjoy my Mexican lunch alone. In a way, it was peaceful to think to yourself and everything, but I do miss Mei Lin, Naoko, Rika and Chiharu, they stood up for me. Even though Naoko and Rika weren’t there. I mean knowing them they would have helped too.
Now Mei Lin and Chiharu got injured because of me. I sighed and ate my tortillas and my coke.
“ Sa-ku-ra.” A sing song voice, interrupted my thoughts.
I looked up, it was them, my friends, well I don’t know if we’re friends anymore.
“ Can we sit here?” Mei Lin asked, cheerfully.
I nodded, they sat and set out their lunches in front of me, Naoko and Chiharu pulling out their chopsticks, Mei Lin unwrapping her lunch, and Rika opening her brown bag.
I didn’t say anything.
“ How’s your cheek?” Rika asked.
“ It’s getting better thanks.” I said, awkwardly. My cheek is still pink where Anna slapped me, but the pink shade is getting lighter, that’s an improvement.
“ Uh..how is your arm? And…your leg?” I asked both Mei Lin and Rika.
Eriol told me that why I was bitchfighting with Anna, Nicole and Maya were pulling Mei Lin away, that’s why she disappeared, they wanted to slap her and stuff. But Mei Lin was too strong, the only thing they did was scratched her arm deeply into a cut, by their clawy savage French-manicured nails.
Stacy and Katrina also pulled Rika away from the scene, they were trying to keep her quiet, but accidentally they said, yeah right, they pushed her off the stands, from the 4th level, she fell to the cold wet grass, and only got a cut by the grass just above the ankle, and bruises from the fall.
“ They’re doing great actually.” Mei Lin replied, calmly.
Now is the time.
“ I… I’m really sorry… I mean it was all my fault you got hurt… both of you…” I apologized, looking down on the ground.
“ So that’s why you have been avoiding us?” Naoko said.
I nodded, and tears came out of my eyes.
“ Look Sakura, it was not your fault, we chose to stand up for you, so don’t blame yourself over it.” Chiharu patted me on the shoulder.
“ But…but.” I argued.
“ If you still think its your fault, and if it was, we forgive you.” Mei Lin finished off.
I nodded.
“thank you…” I said.
“ Besides, I heard you gave her a good slapping, that’s one moment I would love to see.” Naoko said.
“ Sakura, you stood up for yourself, I mean the boys think you’re some psycho now, but we all know that you’re not the one who should be blamed. Anna started it, so don’t let the other people bother you now okay?” Rika assured me.
My lips formed into a small smile.
“ Sakura” A shy squeaky voice called me.
I turned around, I was walking home from school, and stopped for ice cream.
It was Tomoyo.
I picked up my cone, and went to sit on a bench, she followed me, with an ice cream in her hand too.
I didn’t say anything, nor did she. Finally she spoke, “ I’m sorry.” She turned her face toward me.
When I didn’t reply she kept going on.
“ I’ve been such a selfish bitch to you. I thought only of myself,… when they told me that I should make more friends, I…I misunderstood it, I thought it meant to ditch you and hang out with new people… and I just wanted to be popular and get invited to parties…and I feel guilty..but a week ago, I cried because I acted like a bitch to you, I didn’t even stand up or protect you when they were picking on you. And, no they did not ditch me, please don’t think I used you or am using you, I decided to leave them… so Sakura please…will you forgive me?” She said, took a breath, and waited for my answer.
“ and when Eriol broke up with me, and he spoke to me today and he told me why he broke up with me, and everything, and he opened my eyes. He made me realize everything.” She continued.
“ Tomoyo, you had a point. I mean that was really low for you and selfish, I mean yeah you ditched me, I thought you ditched me for better smarter people. I would understand that, but you ditched me for people who are just…pathetic.” I said.
“ So you won’t forgive me.” She croaked.
“ You misunderstand what I mean Tomoyo. I am still mad at you, but I… forgive you.” I said slowly.
Her eyes welled up with tears, and she hugged me.
“ Oh thank you, Sakura, I regretted it so much now, no one can be as forgiving and caring as you are, you’re such a great friend.” She said, while crying.
I just smiled and hugged her.
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